Saudade

2017
Alternatively processed 35mm, collected photographs of the artist’s mother, and various textures from objects within the artist’s home.
Saudade is a Portuguese word: it is a feeling of longing, melancholy, desire, and nostalgia. It describes a deep emotional state; a yearning for a happiness that has passed, or perhaps never even existed. It carries with it a touch of melancholy, yet in that wistfulness there is love as well. One thing is certain: the object or person of that saudade does not inhabit the present space or time.

My work began as a mechanism to cope with my mother’s chronic progressive disease, Multiple Sclerosis. I obsessively created with her image embedded as the subject; questioning how one could portray “the human condition.”